Steady On, My Love

May 17th, 2019 - 9 Months Since Mark's Passing

Below are LYRICS That I have been listening to and feel Mark Holding me while listening to them. *

(Scroll to the END of the Lyrics for My Update on How I am Healing Amongst the Pain and Bravely Flying Higher than ever.)


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Hold Her (Lyrics) by: FOR KING & COUNTRY



She was holdin' on so tight

But why do we still have to say goodbye?

She's all alone tonight

There's nothin' I could do to make it right

Is it ever gonna be, ever gonna be brighter?

Is it ever gonna be, ever gonna be easier?

Hold her tonight

Oh, God, would you hold her tonight?

'Cause I'm not there to stay close

Keep watch, tell her she's not alone

Hold her tonight

We're apart but not alone

My love for her is more than she could know

A secret place only we can go

And we'll laugh while we will hope until we're home

Is it ever gonna be, ever gonna be brighter?

Is it ever gonna be, ever gonna be easier?

Hold her tonight

Oh, God, would you hold her tonight?

'Cause I'm not there to stay close, keep watch, tell her she's not alone

Hold her tonight

Steady on, steady on, my love

This shall soon pass

Steady on, steady on, my love

This shall soon pass

Steady on, steady on, my love

This shall soon pass

Steady on, steady on, my love


Hold her tonight

Oh, God, would you hold her tonight?

'Cause I'm not there to stay close

Keep watch, tell her again she's not alone

Hold her tonight

Hold her tonight

Oh, God, would you hold her tonight?

'Cause I'm not there to stay close

Keep watch, tell her she's not alone

Stay close, keep watch, tell her she's not alone

Hold her tonight



Month 9

This past month my soul has seen new insights into myself and Mark's presence in my life.

The months prior to month 9, Mark's presence was an outside thing.

He was somewhere out there, unreachable, but I would receive signs from him like random quarters that would appear out of no where.

I have read that people that have passed on will send signs such as coins (pennies are most common) to let their loved ones know they are  with them.

Mark sends me quarters. :)

This might sound coo coo to some, it would have to me as well if I hadn't experienced it for myself.

Loss of a loved one can feel LONELY in many different ways.

Of recent, it would feel lonely missing Mark's presence.

I would find myself going places or doing things and wishing Mark was with me or saying to myself, "Mark would really enjoy this."

While I have experienced deep soul work over the months, this month was again another breakthrough.

I went deep into allowing my soul to heal more and let the wound close so that it could heal with a scar as a reminder of what I have learned and to never forget.

I healed from the questions in my soul towards GOD and the universe:


The Whys:

Why so young?

Why Mark and not me?


The Whats:

What now?

What Am I to do?

What about the kids?

The Doubts and Hows

How to continue Mark's legacy

How to run the family with out him because I am so different than Mark.

How to run the businesses because our personalties are uniquely different.

RELEASE

IT WAS ALL RELEASED.

It was all Truly released from the deepest pit of my stomach and soul.

And it was in that moment that I was able to feel FREE.

Free like a bird to test the limits of how high I can truly go as Shannon Hoverson.

And, it was in that moment I felt Mark's presence here on earth again.

So now, when I would normally say to myself, "I wish Mark was here, he would really enjoy this."

I now smile knowing he is right here with me, enjoying it right along with me.

I now have peace in trusting the process of the life that remains for me.

And to receive it all... The good, bad and maybe even more ugly but having peace in knowing that it all works out for my growth..

If I choose to let it teach me and grow me.

And then as my cup over floweth, I will share so that my cup can continue to be filled.

I guess what I am trying to say is this:

I am developing like a butterfly, into a new creation and what that will look like a month from now, two months from now, a year from now, only time will tell.

I chose this picture of Mark and I because:

1.  It is one of my favorites

2. Because mark is holding me and I truly feel he is holding me or sends angels to hold me because I don't feel that same loneliness I previously felt.


I love you all and if you made it this far in the post, wow, Thank you.

Thank you for rooting for me, sending me positive energy, and being a light for me.

And as the above lyrics say,

Steady On my Love, Steady On...


I WILL Steady ON!



With Brave Wings,

-SHANNY